Wow, sooo it's been a while. I think that whole write-3-blogs-in-4-days thing was just a phase. I'm back to my old blog-once-or-twice-a-month ways.
Actually, I think I've just been either a) lazy or b) busy because I have 2 posts on here that I started that I haven't finished. The following is a tidbit I wrote a while ago, because the post before that was one where I avoided talking about what was on my mind because it was so jumbled. I tried to clarify it but then either got confused or bored...I don't quite remember, but I stopped writing nonetheless.
Anyways, here's what's left of it, and my attempt at continuing what I started:
Moving on,
I'm going to (attempt to) put down in words what I avoided in my last post. So here's a warning, it's going to be a giant blurb on friendship, so if you're not feelin' it, I don't advise you read on.
High school, in retrospect (a lot of things are in retrospect right now, high school being one) was a giant game of cat and mouse, cops and robbers, dog-eat-dog whatever you want to call it. On the surface, it doesn't seem like it, and no single person could ever imagine that they, or anyone else they call friends could be capable of what they are thinking of, but it happens. I think that it's all in the the subconscious. Let me explain: I know that I, nor anyone one else, could expect anyone to have something like this on their mind all of the time wow, i am incredibly jealous of how popular she is and how she gets invited to everything. However, I can expect people to show this in their actions. I know that I myself have had this type of thought before, but it's never my main focus. However, as event unfold, it may look like, from the point of view of someone who knows that I have this thought, that I am engaging in actions that demonstrate this thought. Confused yet? Let me explain.
So Jimmy and Katie and dating. Claire, Katie's best friend is jealous of Katie's popularity and awesome love life (Jimmy is really hot). One day, in a conversation with Katie, Claire finds out that Katie thinks another girl named Lindsay is flirting with Jimmy. So, Claire (with no apparent hidden agenda), talks to Lindsay and also to Jimmy. Claire finds out that yes, Lindsay's always had a little crush on Jimmy. Now both Lindsay and Jimmy are aware of it. Now that Jimmy is more aware of it, whenever he talks to Lindsay, its awkward. Katie notices this and confronts Jimmy. (Remember, Katie doesn't know Jimmy knows she knows Lindsay likes him) Jimmy denies anything, but it all explodes in Katie's face and they end it. Katie talks to Lindsay, who also blatantly denies everything, but informs Katie that Claire talked to her. Now, Katie, in addition to hating Lindsay, fights with Claire and loses her best friend (over a "he said she said" - type argument). Katie's "perfect" life is no more. Who comes out on top? Claire.
See what I mean? Although it was never Claire's intention to ruin Katie's social life, that thought in the back of her head affected her actions. [by the way - that story was totally made up, don't even try to compare it to anyone or any particular situation; if it does sound familiar, its totally by coincidence].
To me, that's your average high school social life mechanism. Of course, there's other important elements in there:
- gossip: what's high school without gossip. it is the way by which any simple statement or question can turn into a hugely destructive rumour.
-jealousy: because it's a dog-eat-dog world, everyone wants what the other has.
-emotions: what would adolescence be without sensitive emotions and the melodrama it entails?
I'm hoping and praying that university will be better, that the people will be above all of this. Oh, and one more thing. I'm not trying to say that I myself was devoid of all drama, if anything, I was often involved in it. All I'm saying is, I'm sick of it, and I'm sick of high school. I'm so glad it's over & I'm so effing excited (and that's an understatement) for university.
(I'm just hoping I'm not setting my hopes too high)
more later.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 @ 10:24 AM
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Wow, sooo it's been a while. I think that whole write-3-blogs-in-4-days thing was just a phase. I'm back to my old blog-once-or-twice-a-month ways.
Actually, I think I've just been either a) lazy or b) busy because I have 2 posts on here that I started that I haven't finished. The following is a tidbit I wrote a while ago, because the post before that was one where I avoided talking about what was on my mind because it was so jumbled. I tried to clarify it but then either got confused or bored...I don't quite remember, but I stopped writing nonetheless.
Anyways, here's what's left of it, and my attempt at continuing what I started:
Moving on,
I'm going to (attempt to) put down in words what I avoided in my last post. So here's a warning, it's going to be a giant blurb on friendship, so if you're not feelin' it, I don't advise you read on.
High school, in retrospect (a lot of things are in retrospect right now, high school being one) was a giant game of cat and mouse, cops and robbers, dog-eat-dog whatever you want to call it. On the surface, it doesn't seem like it, and no single person could ever imagine that they, or anyone else they call friends could be capable of what they are thinking of, but it happens. I think that it's all in the the subconscious. Let me explain: I know that I, nor anyone one else, could expect anyone to have something like this on their mind all of the time wow, i am incredibly jealous of how popular she is and how she gets invited to everything. However, I can expect people to show this in their actions. I know that I myself have had this type of thought before, but it's never my main focus. However, as event unfold, it may look like, from the point of view of someone who knows that I have this thought, that I am engaging in actions that demonstrate this thought. Confused yet? Let me explain.
So Jimmy and Katie and dating. Claire, Katie's best friend is jealous of Katie's popularity and awesome love life (Jimmy is really hot). One day, in a conversation with Katie, Claire finds out that Katie thinks another girl named Lindsay is flirting with Jimmy. So, Claire (with no apparent hidden agenda), talks to Lindsay and also to Jimmy. Claire finds out that yes, Lindsay's always had a little crush on Jimmy. Now both Lindsay and Jimmy are aware of it. Now that Jimmy is more aware of it, whenever he talks to Lindsay, its awkward. Katie notices this and confronts Jimmy. (Remember, Katie doesn't know Jimmy knows she knows Lindsay likes him) Jimmy denies anything, but it all explodes in Katie's face and they end it. Katie talks to Lindsay, who also blatantly denies everything, but informs Katie that Claire talked to her. Now, Katie, in addition to hating Lindsay, fights with Claire and loses her best friend (over a "he said she said" - type argument). Katie's "perfect" life is no more. Who comes out on top? Claire.
See what I mean? Although it was never Claire's intention to ruin Katie's social life, that thought in the back of her head affected her actions. [by the way - that story was totally made up, don't even try to compare it to anyone or any particular situation; if it does sound familiar, its totally by coincidence].
To me, that's your average high school social life mechanism. Of course, there's other important elements in there:
- gossip: what's high school without gossip. it is the way by which any simple statement or question can turn into a hugely destructive rumour.
-jealousy: because it's a dog-eat-dog world, everyone wants what the other has.
-emotions: what would adolescence be without sensitive emotions and the melodrama it entails?
I'm hoping and praying that university will be better, that the people will be above all of this. Oh, and one more thing. I'm not trying to say that I myself was devoid of all drama, if anything, I was often involved in it. All I'm saying is, I'm sick of it, and I'm sick of high school. I'm so glad it's over & I'm so effing excited (and that's an understatement) for university.
(I'm just hoping I'm not setting my hopes too high)
more later.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009 @ 10:24 AM
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